Grateful to do something I like to do and that I’m above average at; but sometimes I wish I could do more or other things. Maybe I’m just bored and need a slight change with my life.
“We don’t realize what a privilege it is to grow old with someone.”— Cecelia Ahern
Jeni - I miss you
"Said I miss you, missing you insane
But if I got with you, would it be the same?"
I hate how naive I was with you.
How I thought I could let my guard down because you knew what I’ve gone through.
To think you told me that you’d protect me from all the evil in the world so I could stay naive.
All those promises.
Meeting your mom with you know what.
Giving me that in the first place and asking for that. That out of all things knowing what it means to me.
Were they really nothing to you?
Or is this situation that dire that it’s impossible for you to message me after almost a month.
To think I once told you that you “fixed” me, only to be left more broken than ever; tossed aside like a broken toy. I doubt it can be fixed again this time around.
I don’t feel the same anymore, but that’s okay. Change is an integral part of human existence, I will embrace who I am today and remember who I once was.
What if by the time you come back I’ll be long gone.
I can’t promise that I’ll still be here waiting.
Because every day that goes on, I’m dying a little more inside, slowly feeling nothing and accepting defeat.
So by the time you come back, it may be too late.
Let’s hope it isn’t too late..
“The human desire for escape is a strong one. In fact, our brains are wired for it. We’re wired to avoid discomfort. To fantasize. To drink wine or do drugs or play video games to make it all go away. For those humans in confinement, mental or physical, the urge to seek freedom from terrible situations is desperately real. On a more mundane level, we all want fun, adventure, and play — that’s escape too.”
(Source: quotes.wordsnquotes.com)
You really don’t deserve me.
I hate that you admit it and say it to me.
Because at the end of the day you don’t give a fuck - if you really believed it and feel bad you would do something about it.
Why am I the only one hurt.
Maybe this isn’t meant to be.
They say you choose to stay in love, but maybe it’s not worth it tbh.
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